Long time no post, sorry lj friends! My life is manic. All i seem to do is work work work. Stu's back on track now that god -_- he's even got a job where i work doing some techie shit with IT that I don't understand, but hey, i get to see him more ^_^ Can't think of anything else, just letting you all know I'm still alive and reading your lovely lovely journals!

Current Mood: numb

I guess I should explain why I haven't been online recently.

Basically a couple of weeks ago, I got a call from Stu's mom at about 1am saying that he'd been taken to Manchester Royal Infirmary. So naturally I was so upset... and even more so because we'd have a blazing argument during the day. She didn't say much on the phone... obviously she was devestated aswell.

I rushed straight round to the hospital with my step-sister (because I was in no fit state to drive myself) and I wasn't even allowed to see him until about half 5 in the morning.

It turned out that he'd been drinking for most of the day since our argument to try and calm himself... and also had taken a packet of him moms antidepressants. He'd collapsed at home about midnight. They are pretty sure it was the drinking and not the pills that caused him to pass out - which is thankfully why there is no lasting damage.

Stu is a lot better now, thank God. We have talked so much this past week about everything. It's made me realise that I wouldn't be able to carry on if I lost him. And things are so, so, SO much better with him now.

I blame myself for what happened, of course. But we both need to move on now. Hopefully the future will be brighter for the two of us. :-)

...

Just want to apologise to everyone for not being online... or replying to peoples emails and stuff. I know that I also broke a few engagements with people which I am SO, SO sorry for. (I'm not the type of person to blow people off at all.) I'm sure everyone can understand due to the circumstances.

Hope everyone is ok. And I'll be commenting on journals and stuff as soon as I can!!

Current Music: Dir en Grey.

Weeeeee - i dyed my hair today to cheer myself up.

Be honest guys, what do you all think???







I'll update more later, crap about Stu and stuff. ^_^

Current Mood: fat

I didn't go to work today, i'm too miserable. I still haven't heard from Stu. we have never gone so long without speaking. I don't know why he's being such an arse. He's probably off fucking some hot girl and not even thinking about me.

Might start writing a fic or something to cheer myself up.

Current Location: home
Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Static X

Been so busy with work but then, when am i not!!

Think I'm getting a cold aswell, by throat hurts nooooooo! XD

Things are a bit rocky with Stu. If I'm honest with myself I think that he might be cheating on me. It hurts so much to say this. -_-' I just love him so much. What is wrong with me - why his he being such an ass.

I was round his earlier, and we just got into a huge fight over practically nothing. He got a text on his phone and he wouldn't tell me who it was from - and he took his phone with him when he left the room so i couldn't check. Maybe I'm juts being paranoid, but he doesn't usually act like this. I just stormed out and he hasn't bothered to contact me.

I feel so sick. It would serve him right if I did something stupid. that would teach him. bastard. :(

I got the day off today which is great 'cause i'm sooo tired. I think I'm gonna stay in my PJs all day watching Jeremey Kyle and eating ice cream! woo!

ohhh my god, work was so crappy today. why won't they talk to me there? - they treat me like i'm invisible or like i'm just a piece of dog shit on their shoe and IT'S NOT FAIR!

i might quit and look for a new job. but who would hire me? -_-'

Someone cheer me up?

Current Location: home
Current Mood: sleepy

Just a quick update today, i'm soooo tired.

Went to work this morning - was really horrible there. i don't want to go into it right now, but the people i work with are such nasty ppl. it feels like they're always talking about me behind my back... meh.

just bummed around this evening. watched big brother. tried to ring Stu for a bit but he was out at the pub with his mates. -_-'

oh well - bedtime now. night guys.

A fun survey to put in your LJ

~*All About You*~
What is your name?: Kayleigh
When were you born?: Manchester
Where do you live?: Manchester
Are you male of female?: Female
How tall are you?: 5 foot 2. I'm such a shortass.
What color hair do you have?: Looooads of different colour. purple blue and black
Is it your real hair color? If not what is?: brown/brunette
Do you have glasses/contacts?: glasses. and i hate 'em.
What color are your eyes?: brown
If you are a male...do you have any facial hair?: -
What is your ethnic background?: english
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: yesss - and i love him so much, i would be so lost without my baby
If so...what is thier name?: Stu!!
If you do not have a partner do you have a crush?: -
Are you or have you ever been in love?: I;m sooooo in love right now
What is your religion?: Wiccan through and through
Do you have any nicknames?: Kay
Do you play any sports?: noooo way
What are your hobbies?: cosplay, anime, reading and writing fanfics. shopping!
~*Either/ Or*~
McDonalds Or Burger King?: KFC!
Chicken or Beef?: chicken
Dogs or Cats?: love both
White chowder or Red chowder?: wha..?
West coast or East coast?: don't miond
English or Math?: english - but im not very good at it
Pants or Shorts?: shorta
Sweatshirts with hoods or sweatshirts without hoods?: with, i guess. I don't really care!
Salty or Sweet?: sweet
Fluff or Jelly?: Jelly - what is fluff?
Summer or Winter?: winter. i haaaate the sun.
Hot dogs or Hamburgers?: both
Football or Baseball?: neither
French Fries or Onion rings?: fries!
Contacts or Glasses?: i wish i could wear contacts
Coffee or Tea?: yuck!
Soda or Juice?: soda
Skiing or Swimming?: neither,. i'm really not that sporty
Rings or Bracelets?: both!
~*When is the last time you...*~
Talked on the phone?: earlier on with stu
Laughed?: on the phone to stu
Hugged someone?: the other day when stu came overq
Kissed someone?: same as above
Told someone you loved them....and meant it?: earlier today
Drove?: i cant'' drive! as if they'd let me on the road!
Ate?: a couple of hours ago - made me feel a little sick though
Danced?: aaaagges ago -_-'
Rode a roller coaster?: when i was at school. we went on a trip
Went out to dinner?: like i have the moneys for that
Swam in the ocean?: when i was little
Went to a concert?: i went to see system of a down aaages ago <3
Bought yourself something new?: i bought tamagotchis today!
Worked?: yesterday
Played a board game?: yeeears ago
Went to a party?: feb?
Saw your best friend?: today, stu is my best friend
Saw a shooting star?: last night
Got nervous/happy butterflies?: everytime i see him
~*Do You...*~
Like to cook?: no, i burn things
Have any piercings?: nose and eyebrow
How about tattoos?: none yet
Do you drink?: sometimes
Smoke?: never
Do Drugs?: god no
Have cable/satellite televison?: yeah
Go to school?: just finished college
Actually like school?: high school, nio
Like to read?: comics, i heart JTHM
Like to play video games?: not reallyt stu kicks my ass -_-'
Eat vegetables?: only when i have to
Eat seafood?: yuk!
Have the ability to curl your tongue?: yes
Like to shop?: of course
Like to go to clubs?: not really
Like to dress up?: cosplay ftw
Do you or did you go to school dances?: hell no
Like your job (if you have one)?: not really
~*Which one of your friends...*~
Do you have the most memories with?: stu
Do you have the most in common with?: stu
Is the loudest?: molly
Is the most attractive?: megan
Is the funniest?: stu
Do you trust the most while in the car?: none
Do you trust the least while in the car?: all
Do you tell the most secrets to?: stu
Has told you the most secrets?: stu
Makes you nervous?: olli
Has the biggest wardrobe?: meeeeeeee
Has the nicest car?: none
Is always late?: adam
Is always happy?: jenna
Is the most hyper?: molly
Has the worst taste in the opposite sex?: morgana
Is the smartest?: megan
Is the most photogenic?: megan
Has the best job?: olli
~*Ouick thoughts to ponder*~:
What came first the chicken or the egg?: egg... no chicken... no... egg... i dunno
Is the glass half empty or half full?: empty
Describe your perfect date:: anywhere with stu
Describe your ideal vacation spot:: tokyo
What are some qualities you'd like your significant other to have?: smart, funny, likes same stuff
Describe your dream job:: one where i get paid to do nothing
Describe your dream ride?: mini
If you could be anywhere in the world right now where would you be?: tokyo
If you could speak to one person dead or alive who would it be?: tim burton
If you could be anyone or anything in the world what would it be?: butterfly
Why did you take this survey?: couldn't sleep

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today i went into town, god i crowds of people. i hate the way they just stare at me bacause of the way i dress. gah -_-'

however, i bought a tamagotchi today, one each for me and Stu. that brightened up my day. mine is called rory, he's so cute!! ^-^ stu's is a girl called Kitty she looks the same as mine does at the mo but theyre supposed to change soon.

tomorrow i've got work. really don't want to go but i suppose i have to. just think of the monies. better head off to bed now, early start!